Feminization Kink as a Transmasc Sub

It will be no surprise to long-time fans that I'm interested in genderplay, genderfucking, and generally doing weird and hot things in that vein. I asked Sydney Screams - a gorgeous, fiercely competent dominant and all-around lovely person - to do a "forced feminization" scene with me, and the result is a hot-as-hell, uniquely kinky video!

If you've never heard of this kind of play, feminization involves a submissive being stripped of their masculinity, dressed and often made-up in a “girly” fashion, and trained or treated "like a girl" - and what that means can vary! (Because, obviously, there are many ways of being feminine!) The kink can vary in how willing the submissive apparently is in their transformation, and the dominant may use any number of creative methods and tools to enact the desired change. 

I have found that MANY people enjoy feminization - from cross-dressing men, to trans women eroticizing their experiences, to nonbinary people exploring external gender control. The spectrum of flavors is as broad as the sum of every human who participates. What is shown in porn, however, and unsurprisingly, is largely a narrow view. Tube and clip sites are awash in feminization for cis male consumption.

I wasn’t particularly interested in gender play until relatively recently. I didn’t “get it.” Early in my transition, when I started to experiment with masculine presentations online - like posting photos with bulging packers to Reddit - it felt a little bit like exploration and a little bit like fanservice. I had discovered that “chicks with dicks” - and, critically, tits - get big responses from horny people online. But it didn’t feel like gender play in a kink sense, even if sometimes I found it arousing. It wasn’t until I switched from topical testosterone to injections, and began to accelerate my physical masculinization, that things started to click into place.

At least some of the appeal for me now is related to how my appearance has changed through my medical transition. While I'm not a trans man, I am now masculine enough in appearance that there are outfits I used to wear that I now feel I wouldn't "pass" in. This can feel confusing, vulnerable, a little scary, but also very exciting. It feels like ecdysis. No matter what I do, I can’t fit back into my old skins, my old shells. The pussy is out of the bag. And for whatever reason, my brain thinks that that is hot. (My Dom says it is very clever of me to eroticize my ambivalence. I accept this praise.)

The erotic sensation I feel in feminization is twofold: it is about both masculinization and feminization. (Re-feminization, perhaps.) I’ve done things to make those clothes, this makeup, that role, decidedly and unequivocally not fit. I paid money and blood to remove my breasts, and now when I jerk off my tdick I can feel my pectorals swell and flex. My waist, formerly flanked by perfectly symmetrical measurements of breasts and ass in wasp-like formation, has squared, and ripples with muscle. The mini skirt doesn’t fit, babe. And while I can squeeze into some outfits still - in fact, I cherish my femininity - my relationship with it is necessarily different now.

So why not exaggerate the differences? Make them into a farce? Look, they think they can be a girl again - not very convincing, hmm? What if we apply all the trappings, try and force it back…. It still didn’t work? How embarrassing….

I’ve now had the pleasure of participating in a number of gender play scenes, though “Feminized and Fucked” is the only one that has been filmed. I encourage anyone interested to check it out - there are free previews on my fan and clip sites! - and please let me know your thoughts on the video, on gender play and your experiences with it, and any questions you have on the topic or things you’d like to know more about it.

Cover image for "Feminized and Fucked" with Jaq Quicksilver and Sydney Screams.